Well folks, I turned 30 just a few short days ago! No hiding my age around here.
How does it feel?
I don’t really know how it feels or if I feel 30. What does 30 feel like? What is it supposed to feel like? I have no idea, nor do I know what they say 30 should feel or look like (who are they anyway and why do they get to decide). For me, to fit into a mold is definately not going to happen… I definitely miss the mark. If I am a square peg than so be it. It’s actually ok.
It’s hip to be a square.
They may tell me I should be a certain weight, that I should have certain amounts of money dispursed into certain accounts and have obtained certain levels in a career or be making a minimum salary. Yikes. Lets talk about something else.
Like… what I do know today. Here is what I am feeling and I don’t care what they say anymore.
I want to be more of myself… Learn more of who I am. I want to do more of the things I want to do and do less of things that I don’t. I want to care less of what people think of me and care more about people and what they are going through. I’d like to learn new things… Create something original, not just mimic what others make and follow step-by-step “fail proof” instructions. How about focus on more simplicity In Life? Less is the new more, they say. I’d like to enjoy the things I love most instead of keeping them packed away for special occasions or for when we can get our own place. I want to enjoy what I have and let it be enough. Make less to do lists and free up more time for those I love… I never get my lists done anyways and end up feeling defeated and unaccomplished. Nobody wants to feel that at the end of each day. You know, you never get time back, so spend the time you have doing things that really matter and with those you love. I know, some days there are things you just have to get done… things have to happen and things can’t be put off, but you know what I mean… I hope. I am more thankful daily for my family and friends and what I have. This is something I am still learning. I don’t want to get caught up in the rat race of life, of seeing how much money I can make… How much success I can gain for myself or what size of jeans I can fit or not fit into.
Simple enough, right?
Pretty much, I am going to quit trying to hammer myself into the hole I should fit into. It gets old.
At the end of the day I want to smile and know that I did what I could, that I did what I love and that I did something that mattered.
You don’t have to turn 30 to do these things. You can start now, no matter what age you are. And you don’t have to do these things at all! Who am I – pick some things for yourself and quit trying to please people who don’t really care. Plus, they are too busy looking at their phone anyway.
Oh, and don’t tell me it is all downhill from here. I like hiking too much.